What is logic?
Perhaps it is to find reasonable rational elements in an irrational world. But is this element correct? I came across a farmer theory online.
The general idea is that a farmer raises chickens and feeds them at eleven o'clock every day. Then, a very intelligent chicken concluded that as long as it's eleven o'clock, food will appear in this world, and they thus grasped this pattern. However, on Thanksgiving Day, the chickens did not wait for food to appear; instead, they met the cleavers that would slaughter them.
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This probably explains why metaphysics exists.
Some things do not happen according to my wishes. At times, I even wonder if my life is too convoluted. Perhaps my life is not real; I am merely the protagonist in some book, so in my world, things will always happen revolving around me.
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It seems I read too many novels while recuperating some days ago!
Regardless, what is happening now is this: Teacher Wang Ren believes in the existence of patterns in this world, but I believe more in the theory of cause and effect rather than logical theory.
The difference between the theory of cause and effect and logical theory is that in logical theory, A implies B, and if A is done, B will definitely be obtained. But cause and effect is different; for every cause, there is an effect. For example, you do A, thinking you will get B, but you get C or D. This is because if you do A, there will inevitably be a result, but this result is not what you desired.
Just like the farmer theory, those intelligent ones thought that food would appear at eleven o'clock. This is not wrong; this is the logic of raising chickens. But perhaps at eleven o'clock, the farmer brings a cleaver instead of food. This is called the theory of cause and effect, because he raises chickens to be slaughtered, or perhaps to be sold, or even as pets.
Therefore, logical theory is linear, while the theory of cause and effect is a scattered, irregular pattern of dots.
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From the current situation, I can only conclude one thing: I did it myself.
Luo Bo was right; there was no one in the house to kill me, I committed suicide.
My purpose in committing suicide must have been to deal with someone, but the problem is that things did not develop linearly according to the logical relationship I set, but rather a causal relationship occurred.
Because I committed suicide, I lost my memory and also the ability to discern situations.
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But do good deeds and ask not of cause and effect.
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Hypnosis is truly a terrifying thing!
As I figured things out, the ticking sound by my ear became clearer.
To be precise, I woke up.
Yes, this time I truly woke up. I was in the study, and someone had given me medication. I wanted to pull out the IV tube, but my strength seemed to have completely vanished. Waking up was my limit.
At this moment, someone walked over. I quickly closed my eyes, leaving a small slit to see. It was Ke Yingying, along with a female nurse.
"How are you today?"
"No special reactions, everything is very normal."
"Did you do what I asked?"
"I did. I recited these words more than a dozen times."
"Check again!" Ke Yingying said to the person who was like a nurse.
"Okay!"
After speaking, the nurse checked my eyelids: "Signs of having woken up?"
"Increase the dosage."
"That will kill him."
"I told you to increase it, so increase it."
The nurse nodded, took a syringe from the cart, and injected medication into the plastic tube. Meanwhile, after speaking, Ke Yingying picked up a notebook and began to read: "Southern Faction Obituary, Ke Yingying..."
My eyelids felt like they were fighting, slowly drooping down, and then the entire world seemed to emit a puff of smoke, and I knew nothing more. After an unknown period, I woke up and heard Teacher Wang Ren's voice.
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"Find Ke Yingying."
"Where do we find her?"
"She can't hide for long. The 'Southern Faction' has had three deaths in a short period. They will absolutely not let Ke Yingying hide. We will definitely find her."
I looked at Teacher Wang Ren: "I have an idea. I don't know if it will help find Ke Yingying?"
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This conversation felt familiar. Where had I heard it before? Yes, Teacher Wang Ren had told me this before, but why was he telling me again?
"Could those words have hypnotized me?"
With this thought, I stared intently at Teacher Wang Ren. His expression was impassive, but when I proposed a method to find Ke Yingying, a hint of disdainful smile appeared at the corner of his lips.
Facing this smile, I had no further thoughts, but I subconsciously asked: "Is Ke Yingying hiding related to Xiao Zi'an? If Xiao Zi'an changed her appearance for her..."
I didn't finish speaking because I realized I had already said this before.
"You think Xiao Zi'an and Ke Yingying have a cooperative relationship?"
"How would they contact each other?"
"Ke Yingying dragged Xiao Zi'an into it..."
I had said all these things before. It was a conversation between myself and Teacher Wang Ren, but now Teacher Wang Ren was speaking alone, as if conversing with me, yet I said nothing.
Ah~
I cried out in pain, and then my whole body convulsed. The world before me was sometimes whole, sometimes shattered. Intermittently, I seemed to see the nurse's face, or perhaps a face that looked like mine. It was so maddening; my spirit felt torn apart.
After an unknown period, the sunlight became bright again, and old Shanghai-style songs played in the background.
I opened my eyes. The parts were still there, the record player was still playing. It was as if I had just had a nightmare.